Life Goes On

Life's funny, you know? Not really in a 'haha' sort of way, although sometimes I do have to laugh aloud at what happens in my life. But I'm talking more of like a 'funny how nothing turns out the way you expect' sort of funny. I've had some pretty great moments, and I've had some pretty rough patches too. And throughout the past couple months I've had a sentence of Robert Frost's running through my head like a mantra: "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."

No matter how much I try to hang on to moments, or how much I wish time would fly by to get me out of a situation or a place, life just continues. And I've begun to find some comfort in these words. No matter how high or low I might be flying at any given time, there is a steady flow - I can always count on night to follow day.

I had so many dreams and aspirations for what I thought my life would be like at this point. And honestly, my life looks NOTHING like what I had planned. I'm pretty sure that when I was forming all these dreams, God was just laughing to Himself. But despite the fact that some dreams have faded and some have been crushed and some have just become impractical, I'm ok with where He has brought me.

I'm content. Content but not satisfied. I know that I can't stay here. I know I'm not done growing and changing. I know that there will be more struggles ahead. Some of them probably tougher than I can even think of. But as C.S. Lewis said, "There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." (I guess I like quotes lately.)

This is a really hazy smattering of thoughts, but I guess I've come to a few conclusions in this muddle that's been on my mind the past few weeks: (a) life goes on, whether I want to stay in a moment or am looking forward to tomorrow and (b) I don't regret where God has led me. I am at peace, and I've seen some things pan out that clearly show the hand of God in my life. I know without a doubt that He's in control - He's got some crazy plan...and if I don't regret following Him now, I know He won't steer me wrong in what's to come. I want to end life (even phases of life) knowing that I followed Him, that He used the events in my life to shape me, and I want to hear at every phase: "Well done, good and faithful servant."